Category: Reflections


Its been no secret I have been battling with health a bit this year. I can see this is really on three fronts.

  1. Illness – My immune system has been down, causing me to get sick quite regularly, particularly when picking up my training load.
  2. Injury – I am still getting intermittent injuries – mainly lower legs and in my left shoulder.
  3. Stress – Just general life stuff which saps energy, motivation etc

One thing I have really noticed though when seeking advice on these issues, from friends, health professionals and qualified medical practitioners, is that 95% of the time the approach to healing seems completely wrong. The approach invariably seems to be focused on adding something into the mix to try and create a new balance, rather than finding the cause of the problem, removing it and thereby reinstating the natural balance.

A great example is with my recent illnesses. I personally think it is a food allergy at the moment, which was exposed by the pressure I put my body under when training for the Gold last year. Now, I’ve seen a local doctor two or three times about this over the course of the illnesses and firstly I was prescribed anti-biotics – with the disastrous effects the week before the gold. Second I was tested for asthma and I was tried on Ventolin. On my third visit, I asked him about nutrition and food allergies. This visit was really insightful to me as the doc and I had a really great discussion on how “nutrition” and other such therapies works in the Australian medical world.

A big problem that currently exists in the Australian medical world is that if a doctor cannot make a treatment “medical”, they cannot get the treatment through to the client without pressure of some kind from Medicare. Now – this is all heresay, just from my conversation with the doctor, so I do not know what the whole story is or anything like that, but the impression I got is that Medicare’s approval of treatments govern much of what the doctors these days can do. And medical change (understandably I must say) being so slow, treating illness with things like “nutrition” is still a little “voodoo” (his words not mine) in most medical circles.

So the result of this is that I walked into the doctors with asthma like symptoms, for the first time in my life as a 37 year old adult,  and rather than find what caused the reaction and remove it, I was prescribed Ventolin as the first option.

Speaking to many others about the issues I’ve been battling with, the same thing happens. Not so much on the prescription side of things, rather on the supplement side of things. The number of supplements I’ve been recommended have been as numerous as they have been varied. Boost immunity, fight bacteria etc – they all must be good, but still they seem to be fighting symptoms, rather than the problem. This became really clear to me in speaking to Kerry from the health food shop across the road. She has been helping me try and suss out what is causing the inbalance in the first place, by gradually removing and reintroducing things from my diet. By finding what is causing the reactions though and removing it, the body works as it should do and may not need the other stuff.

I’ve been kind of lucky this year too in that I have started long term Chiropractic work with Grant Phillips. I have had structural issues with my back and neck, causing shin splints, spasms, injuries all over the place, for as long as I can remember. Grants philosophy as I understand it is quite simple. At the back of your spine, there are no muscles to pull the spine back in alignment. So if it gets out of alignment in that direction (as all of our spines do with age) it needs help going back into balance. Incorrect alignment is what creates all the injuries. So correcting alignment will prevent the injuries from occuring.

When I remember all the other professional treatments I have had, they have all recognised the misalignment, but rather than correct that they created a treatment based on building muscle in different areas of the body to try and pull things back into place. In other words, they have been about creating an un-natural compensation to rebalance, rather than removing the original misalignment.

Stress is the same too isn’t it? Meditation, yoga, exercise, burn it off. Its probably way more healthy just to correct the source of the stress – but that’s probably the longest term thing to correct for all of us isn’t it.

Its been a bit of a battle to get back into training this year. Among other things, I seem to be getting sick a lot and now there is another baby in my home.Once you are out of the routine, it can be difficult to get back into it. This  is the real battle I have been facing. Since the last time I got sick, I just haven’t been able to get the motivation back again to hit the track.

I had life saving patrol on the weekend though. During my 6 hour patrol, I managed to get 45 minutes swimming and body surfing and then also an hour out on the rescue board, paddling around the flagged area, keeping an eye on things etc. I really enjoyed my time in the water. All of a sudden – I have a spark of motivation to get things moving again.

Surf Life Saving huh – there are so many reasons why its great to be involved.

Well, now I have 2 children. Jai Damian was born on January 22nd. I have to admit, I’m over the moon – it is so nice having a baby in the house again.

That being said – it does put an additional pressure on my time and another complication into my schedule. I now have not trained for about 3 weeks and cannot see how I am going to fit a session in for at least 1 – 2 more weeks. The only way I can see this progressing is earlier and earlier mornings.

I have decided though to lift a lot of pressure off my shoulders. I can’t do everything, I’ll still have a crack at 2011, but if it does not work out, there is 2012, 2013, 2014 etc etc etc.

Anyway, that’s all I am going to write – I need to get back to my son :)

Act As If Success Is Guaranteed

Failure Is Not Only The Output Of An Unsuccessful Venture – But The Input For A Successful Venture

Gary Ryan Blair – The Goals Guy

Post Coolangatta Gold Hangover

Its about a month since the Gold, November has been a bit of of strange month for me. The first week after the event, mentally I was exhausted. I could not concentrate at work after midday. Then at the end of the week, my face broke out in some large pimples, which still have not healed. I’ve been sick twice and my stress levels have been quite high. I feel like I am on edge most of the time. I’ve started to get back into training twice now, both times I have ended up sick. So what is going on?

Clearly my immune system is shot at the moment. I’m guessing there is still an element of training burn-out in my mind too.

This week, I’ve spoken to two people about this.

Firstly, I had a chat to my friend,  gold medal Olympic cyclist Sara Carrigan. I had a chat to Sara on Thursday about her post big event wind downs. She said that she’d have a full 4 weeks off when she would not look at, think of or touch a bike. She wanted to be frothing and mad keen to get back on the bike before she started training for a new year and this is the way she refreshed. With my start-stop get back into training, I haven’t done this. So I am going to have at least 2 weeks off training. I haven’t done anything at all this week, I’ll take next week completely off too. The only thing I am going to do are fun things, like surfing if I feel like it.

I also spoke to one of my health professionals too, who thought my body was shutting down after the stress I’d put it through. He thought I may be gluten intolerant and suggested I tried 6 – 8 weeks of zero gluten intake. If I am intolerant, he said the difference in energy, training aptitude, concentration etc would be so clear, there would be no question. I’ve decided to give this a go. Looking at the differences in diet, it should not take massive changes. All meats, fruit and vegies are gluten free. I only need to watch out for breads, cereals, pasta and sauces. This point brings me back to the nutrition thing I was talking about just before the race. One of the things I want to work out this year is what diet set-up make my body and mind perform at its optimum. This will be good for work, play and life generally.

Below is a table documenting my resting heart rate, where it is at the moment. I took these recordings immediately on waking in the morning, while still in bed, before doing anything. The response I get from everyone I train with when discussing this is “Gees, your resting heart rate is really high”. It is. It should be at least 10 bpm lower than what it is for the races I am competing in. The reason I wanted to put this up is it highlights a number of things.

  1. I still do not have much of a base for endurance events. I am still your every day guy just having a crack at something massive. If you are reading this blog thinking I am different, an ironman, which is why I have the audacity to even consider trying something like the Gold, this should prove I am not. I am just your every day guy trying hard. Don’t be intimidated by something that is out of your reach. Set your goal and go for it.
  2. It reminds me that despite all the work I have done to date, fitness is letting me down as well as experience and skill. I think the best way to improve this is to run. More and more running. Swimming too. All the boring stuff that just hurts…

Resting Heart Rate 2010

Date Heart Rate
23/07/2010 76
24/07/2010 84
25/07/2010 74
26/07/2010 74
27/07/2010 75
28/07/2010 80
29/07/2010 81
30/07/2010 73
02/08/2010 72
08/09/2010 72
09/09/2010 68
11/09/2010 79
12/09/2010 82
13/09/2010 75
15/09/2010 71
16/09/2010 69
17/09/2010 76
18/09/2010 72
19/09/2010 74
21/09/2010 78
22/09/2010 74
23/09/2010 78
24/09/2010 78
25/09/2010 80
26/09/2010 81
27/09/2010 80
28/09/2010 72
29/09/2010 76
30/09/2010 73
02/10/2010 72
06/10/2010 74
07/10/2010 80
08/10/2010 70
10/10/2010 74
11/10/2010 72
19/10/2010 74

It certainly has been a year of unfinished business for me. First there was the disastrous half marathon in July, now the unfinished Coolangatta Gold.

Its funny how everyone says you learn from defeats and failures. Despite the pain on the day, there are lessons there yada yada. Its a little bit cliche, but I have to say, looking at these 2 races at the end of 2010, I am glad the year panned out as it did. There were definitely many positives that came from my devastating half marathon effort as well as the weekends Gold.

With the half marathon, I trained well for it, got my endurance up, had a goal of 2 hours, got sick, came in a bit over 2 hours 20 and was devastated. Emotionally, it took me weeks to get past. It was awful. I think I felt this way as I felt like I failed, despite finishing. The reason I felt like I failed is that I was not in a position on the day to give it my best shot. My result was not mine, it was the result of something that was less than me, less than the training I had done.

With the Gold, I trained as well as I could, I was healthy on the line, I found my skill limits in the big conditions and then I found my endurance limits due the the extra time I took through the first three legs. I didn’t finish yet I did not feel like a failure. I know the result was an honest one, I found my limits and pushed myself to them. The day reflected where I am in the sport. While disappointed I did not get through to the end, I was satisfied with my efforts.

Being able to compare the two events has been a real boon for me. It gave me some insight into myself, the ability to see what failure means to me. It is not in completion, or winning, or times or anything like that, it is in pushing myself to my limits on the day. If I can do that, while disappointed with my result, I won’t feel like I failed. If I don’t find my limits for whatever reason, that is where I feel the failure, that is where disappointment turns to despair and depression.

Well, I did some research today on the anti-biotics I’ve been taking, Amoxycillin with Clavulanic Acid. 4 of the possible side effects are:

  1. Anxiety
  2. Nausea
  3. Insomnia
  4. Dizziness

Thats basically it. That really explains my last 5 days down to a T!

My last in the first course was this morning, I have a repeat, but there is no chance at this stage. I’m going natural again!!!

Its really interesting isn’t it, how something changes in our body and the last place we look for a cause, is often the most obvious and the actual reason. I mean this case as an example, since I’ve been taking the anti-biotics for my sore throat, I have been really anxious, particularly about getting sick – and really grumpy with Moana. I’ve only been sleeping 5 – 6 hours a night. I’ve been nauseous basically at every major meal, I never asked myself  “what changed” though. I always assumed it was just a symptom of the flu.

With medicine particularly, I think we have the natural tendency to expect it to “fix” things and not create other issues.

Clearly in hindsight, the one thing that changed with me since Friday last week, was the anti-biotics. Let me get them out of my system fast and then see how I feel.

Well its Monday morning and I must say, I am still feeling terrible. I am better than yesterday, so on the improve, but still very fluey.

I feel super grumpy and if I am honest, a little panicky. All I can think about is all the work I have put into this and once again, I get hit with illness at a crucial moment. I can’t believe it has happened, what happens if I can’t even start on Sunday? The same thing happened at the half marathon, and the same thing at the 10km event I trained for the year before. Its as if illness is waiting just behind every event I officially train for.

Also, I feel a little nauseous every time I eat.

Finally, I’m not sleeping much at all. I find I get really tired, but then cannot sleep till 1am. I wake at 5am and cant get back to sleep. This is a worry too – I was hoping for lots of rest this week for a good recovery from training.

I’ve been paying attention to my self talk over the last couple of days and I have to admit, it has gone to the dogs. I think it reveals a degree of lack of self confidence. Its as if I am looking for excuses why the race will not go well. Injury, illness, conditions – I have been focusing so heavily on these things, rather than my training, my fitness, my capabilities.

I really need to pick this up. I’m a nervous starter at the best of times, but another week of this intensive negative focus will have me shaking at the starting blocks. I need to turn this around and start looking at all the positives. I think some positive mental visualisation exercises are in order. I remember reading a book years ago, Thinking Heart Dancing Mind. It was all about getting your mind in the right place. I remember it was excellent when I read it last. I know I have it somewhere still, I’m going to pull it out, dust it off and give it another read.

If you are interested in this book, I found a copy on Amazon, the link follows:

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